The Journey

Arabian says: yes... i know you love him...

I growl: really i do? where's proof?

Arabian growls: i loved you cause you always cared but now you already forgot about your pups... it's like you don't care

I snarl: you know what maybe i don't

i then follow the hunters scent to their campsite and i growl at the raccons and the bear and the left so fast some of their fur is in the air then i let out a super deep and long howl and again i shake the snow off my fur

a howl rings in my ears... i recognize the wolf... so i continue walking

arabian makes it so he is like a real wolf visible to all and he says: you need to get over it...

i stop in my tracks and growl: really?

then i stop and let out a deep long howl and they don't stop running till they got back to their cars and they left so fast they didn't even pack up their things i then let out a laugh and i shake off the snow that covered my fur

i walk off something by my side invisable to everyone else since not in a solid form...

then he and everyone else there with him run away cuz they think that theres a ghost of a wolf there cuz all they see is a shadow that looks like a wolf

i see a strange wolf that looks like a ghost/spirit solidated fighting beside me

then as soon as one of them fall and i rip him to pieces

then i go for the remaining hunters who heard my bark and know that theres another wolf out there but they can't see me cuz i bended in to the snow

i smile in satisfaction as he runs off...

i growl at the hunter about to kill him but i stop baring my teeth in his face i get off and watch him run off

then i slow down cuz i see the hunters and then i see who they hunting and i stop. Its Crystal i stop and then i go around the hunters and flank them and i let out a bark that i know Crystal will know

his dog jumps on my and i through the dog off

I run to the gunshot and jump on the person who shot it...

As i get closer i hear yelling and gunshots and screaming and yelps of pain

on my way back i hear a gunshot and the memory comes back and i know this time they won't win. i change the way im going and the wind changes with me and its so eager its pushing me to my limits

minutes pass as they seem like hours...

i snarl: i'm ready come and get me... this is a true battlefield

then as if mother nature is on my side wind starts to blow in every dicertion that i go and i run with the wind eager to get home and tell everyone that im sorry and explain everything

in the back of my mind i hear something that sounds like a whisper but it was a howl from so far away...

I hear a noise a little ways ahead of me and i jump to my feet ready for what may be coming...

i hear a shout and some screaming and then a sudden bang... a gun shot...

I snarl: hunters...

i then relize what i been doing wrong this whole time and i now promise myself that fear won't rule my live then i go back to the top of the cliff and let out a howl thats full of feelings that i need to let go from the past. i then howl a howl full of strength and love for the present and the future that could be heard for miles and miles

I see arabian and he says: crystal...
A tear rolls down my cheek and i say: Arabian i still love you and i'm so sorry for leaving you... i chose you and i still do...
Arabian's gaze softens as he says: i know... i should've learned it first... i won't ever be able to let go of you... i still love you...
I say: arabian... you'll always be my guy... there will never be another like you...
Arabian kisses me and whispers: you talk to much... you're to sorry... i should be the one saying sorry.... i love you crystal...

he fades away and once he's gone i mutter: how can i go on... even the pups hate me...

right after i yelled at my parents grave i saw Luna again
Luna: Snow i know what your thinking you must let go of this memory you need to let go of your fear please listen to me its not their fault its mine
Snow: i freeze what do you mean?
Luna:i let my guard down i didn't realize they were close so please let go of this and focus on your life with Crystal that is the thing that you need to do
Snow:i will. i will let this go im sorry.
Luna: don't be sorry its my fault
Snow: i still love you Luna. but i need to focus on what my life is now then before right i will i love you
Luna:i know you love me Snow and you always will as will i but now go and enjoy life with Crystal don't let this get in the way

i think what my step parents told me: love is an endless fude it'll stop the start right back up again... honey its the way of life...

I sigh: my real parents hated me my step parents where ok... why does everyone hate me at one point in my life...

i growl to the wolf: depends... who are you?
he laughs and says: yep that you crystal...
I smile and say: Dakota... i miss you and arabian so much...
He says: i know you do... Arabian misses you so much to...
I say: are you still mad at your brother cause both of you wanted to be with me...he laughs: all fudes pass in time... but love never does...
no matter what it seems...

He fades off and i think: what does he mean... apperently love does fade sometimes....

i say what are you
Luna:im a figure of your mind i need to tell you that i care about you and...
Snow:but i let you die i wasn't there to protect my family i let you down and i haven't been the same since that day
Luna:its ok i still care for you but you need to know that i still care for you but your life is your own now you need to be nice to Crystal she loves you
Snow:but i don't think she does but ok i will try to be better
Luna:heres what you do
and she tells me then i start back home but before i left i stop at my parent's grave and say is this what you whated you left me before i ever was old enough my older sister took me in and i haven't learned to have a proper family without fearing that they might die